Focus and Persevere: What is your filter?

I guess sometimes my filter is silence. Call it great raisin' but I was always taught if you can't say anything nice don't say anything at all. That has been the safest thing lately. For 3 weeks I have had skin reactions so bad that I thought I would literally claw my skin off. Maybe its thyroid levels being high and then extremes low, treatment,  or coming back on meds. Stress, hormone changes, treatments, overload. My body is just exhausted. When you itch that bad and every inch is covered in hives and redness and rash, there is not much left emotionally. This has been the bottom so my silence has been a good thing. I am sick of this. I am tired of not feeling like myself. There.... SAID IT. Posted it. Committed to the feeling instead of denying it.
Today did not give the answers that I wanted but I am still thankful. Thankful for my husband who stood up for me. Who went to visits with me that I dreaded. I have answers that I just have to wait for the skin to clear. Allergic reactions are fun especially went the cause is "unknown." Of course I have my list narrowed.

So I am once again reminded of my isolation time. God gave me time alone to FOCUS on his word. Throughout the new testament we are told over and over to persevere. Keep the faith. Do not give up, HE is coming back. PERSEVERE and do not forget that. When times are easy, do not forget that the LORD IS GOOD. When times confusing, DO not forget that the LORD endures. When times are ridiculous, God is still in the middle of them. When our world seems to be full of our own chaos, there is a bigger purpose and God's purpose is what matters more. These things should be our focus. He should be our filter FIRST. Not facebook, not even our blog. Not our best friend or spouse. God is my filter and Lord knows that I need to let Him filter more of me so that pure product pours our. Not dense, contaminated, selfishness but His compassion that helps us look beyond ourselves and our overwhelming situations. Focusing on Him allows us to take our eyes off ourselves. Focus on the things that last and persevere in doing the things that He tells us to. Filtering with His precious word and presence.